I’ve always wanted to become absolutely massive and I do usually bulk up nicely, it’s just been diet and the fact that I don’t consistently stick with going to the gym.

I think I have the genetics at my age to still do it. I’m overall pretty heathy and I’ve noticed since I added choline and creatine to the stack that I feel like I’m getting stronger every day. I can do more reps and more sets, I notice that my movements feel explosive. I have fast twitch muscle fiber and am optimized for power lifting and sprinting and those are the types of exercise I liked growing up.

As a kid I couldn’t run super far but I could absolutely rip off the line and to this day if I sprint even at my size I am quick, but running at my weight has been a challenge.

As a younger adult I did lift and I think I was about 10 or 15lbs off of squatting my weight before I injured myself but I was making progress really quickly. I think I’m healthier now than I was then.

Losing 25lbs so far has made it a lot easier to do body weight exercises but my weight loss has slowed even though my body fat percentage is moving in the right direction. Possibly from hopping on creatine which increases water retention or possibly from beginning resistance training which can contribute to it.

I had wanted to get down to about 165 but I don’t know if that will be possible. I think I’m naturally kind of stocky and 175 or 185 might be it, we’ll see.

I don’t know how big I can get but I want to find out. I am not going to touch the suspicious supplements or peptides. I’m going to do it natural. I feel like my testosterone levels are still pretty high even for my age. I know what high T feels like and can tell when testosterone is higher just from how I feel.

I’m on a cut which means I’m eating enough calories to stay alive and not lose muscle but I’m also trying to put muscle on. I’m not sure how that works but my body is adding muscle, so I’m guessing while I build muscle my body is using fat for missing calories.

I used an AI to figure out what’s happening with my deficit and it told that a combo of water retention and new muscle is slowing progress on the scale but to focus on measurements and that over time the weight loss would catch up.

We’ll see.